Namaskara!

Today was one of those days which are a bit nonsense. After i finished my written materials i feel a bit bored (even more than i did before.) After working at 150 percent (yeah, to all of you, i know no one can work more than 100 percent... but my days have 48 hours. my concept of a day is quite different than yours. believe or not. i finally came to the point were i really really have to think what weekday is. and i got to the conclusion that it doesnt matter at all what weekday it is. and it will probably never. hopefully. i hope that i can forget the whole thing of days, weeks or month from now on (ok maybe not months or so, but at least days.) i do my work whenever i feel so. i live, regardless the name of the day. it doesnt make a difference to me whether today is monday, wednesday or sunday. i work, see friends, browse youtube, or just bore myself. i dont say that all days are the same. it's just that i dont need a name like tuesday to give my doing a meaning. why do all world have to have stop doing things on sunday, on the seventh day of the week? why not on the day formerly known as Thursday? why cant everyone take time off when they want to? the whole idea of having 7 days is quite conservative. anyhow).... i lost the point. oh, yes, after working at 150 percent over the last few months i now have to do much less. it feels like as if i was speeding on the motorway and then pulled the handbrake suddenly. according to the laws of physics a body has a certain amount of inertia. my mind probably as well. on one side, it feels empty and i dont know what to do really. on the other side, the things are still going around in my head. im still thinking about it. whether i should have used that argument or another one.
I know i have things to do. and it is not less stressful, to be honest. but its different. there is no deadline. i did and finished it when i did and finished it. it's all back to my own. no one else's control. at the moment, i feel like falling into a big hole. no motivation, no incentive, no pressure, no nothing, must me and my mind. i dont know how this will end. today it didnt make a difference to me whether i was sleeping or not. but i was there.

i found this one. it was bothering me for some time. i watched inside man months ago and this song was in it. a bit like a song to get hooked. today i had the time and boredness to look it up from youtube. i think its nice.